AYY-BEEE.
19, young girl.
A mummy`s girl.
dream big and grant her own wishes.
love to take risk for the memories.
DISLIKE horror cause they cause her to have sleepless nights ):
lastly,attached. *insert names* 's property.









let the truth to be reveal.

AL-FATIHAH to MD HARIZ..

honestly. it hard for me to accept the fate.
he had came into my life giving me a happiness n brighter life to lean on. he was there where ever i go. he was there when i need someone to be my listening ear. he did his best to see me happy. he is the person who had been this while loving me secretly for the past 3months and keeping track on me by reading my blog. he went to my workplace just to see how beautiful i am. how wonderful moment it can be.

but what ever he did was not apprieciated by me.. and i could dare to make tis blog dead just not to let him keep updating on me. i was too pissed off till i didnt realise that i had hurt someone feeling. he was too emotional. he drunk n ride with his friends. he cant stop calling my name. ABBY ABBY ABBY.. "ASAL ABBY NK TINGGAL KAN AKU.."..
unfortunately on that day, he met an accident n a taxi ride over him at the expressway. he was been drive to the CHANGI HOSPITAL immediately by the ambulan. that is when i started to feel miserable. because he met an accident because of me. im sorry, hariz.. i didnt mean too.. he was being admitted in the icu. and was been diagnosed of fractured leg. 50-50 he could walk. he didnt me to come n see him cos he know, i will surely cry for him.

before i went to kedah, i told su that i didnt have enough money to go. to my goodness, tis lovely guy by the name of hariz, transfer his money to her account n mainly for my fare n shopping stuffs. and he sang a song dedicated for me for the last, KU UKIR NAMAMU.. and i know, on that time he was trying to survive himself. i was being too touched till i couldnt say anything.
so life in kedah was fun n exciting for the first two days. on the third day on the 15 june, su received a msg frm hariz' friend.

"ive been calling u several times but yet i cant get thru. i just want to inform u that abg hariz didnt make it during the operation. doc detect that there are a bld clot in his brain. and they cant get to save him.. he passed away di mornin.. pesan dari hariz sebelom die hembuskan nafas die kali terakhir, he didnt want abby n su cry for him.. and he know abby love him like how he love her.."..

i was too shocked n i cried badly. why must be him. why must he go leaving me alone.. YA ALLAH.. ampunkan la dosa hamba mu YA ALLAH....


if only he is still alive, i would like to hug him n said a million n billion of thank you for loving me that much. i never deny that you have snatch my heart ever since i know abt your character. i nvr deny that i fall in love with you eventhough i still have my halim with me. but i cant accept your love because he still my legal boyfriend and i cant leave him. as long as you know, there is someone out there who have show her love twrds you. which ME! =] eversince i heard your love story with the unapprieciated girl. i feel sorry for you. BUT you have teach how to love somebody truly.. because of you too, i learn what is true love. thanks hariz. i will never forget you. semoga tuhan tempatkan kamu di golongan org2 yg mulia.. semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat.

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